Brendan struggled to stay
awake. A tough battle—far tougher than it should have been under the
circumstances.
They’d approached him behind a bank, its parking lot empty as
evening turned to night. He’d been cutting through to the shelter,
hoping it would still have meals. Hot meals would be too much to
hope for at that hour, but he’d settle for free.
The bank had erected a fence between itself and the shelter to
stem the flow of kids taking the shortcut from the bus stop. Brendan
had been halfway up when the woman had hailed him. Fearing trouble,
he’d only climbed faster, until she’d laid a hand on his calf and
he’d turned to see not cops, but a middle-aged couple—well-dressed
professional types.
They’d told him some story about losing their son to the streets
and devoting their lives to helping other kids. Bullshit, of course.
In real life, everyone wanted something. Despite their sincere
smiles and concerned eyes, he’d decided that what they wanted was
sex. And, as long as they were willing to pay for it, that was okay
with him.
It wouldn’t be the first trick he’d turned. He’d briefly teamed
up with a kid from the shelter, until Ricky had found a
better-looking partner. Brendan should have taken this as a sign. If
he wasn’t good-looking enough to be a whore in L.A., he sure as hell
wasn’t going to make it as a movie star. But it was too late to go
home now. Too late to admit he didn’t have what it took. Too hard to
face everyone who’d told him so.
He did have talent. Won the top role in every school play. Got a
job at the summer theater three years running. Did two TV
commercials for local businesses. So, at sixteen, tired of his
parents telling him to go to college first, he’d taken his savings
and come to L.A.
Now the money was gone and he’d found no decent way to earn more,
and if this couple wanted what he figured they wanted, that was fine
by him. They had kind faces. Maybe in Hollywood that didn’t count
for shit, but where he’d come from, it meant something.
They’d driven him to their home in Brentwood. He’d recognized the
neighborhood from a "Star Tours" bus trip he’d taken when he first
arrived. He’d sat in the back of their SUV, peering out the tinted
windows into the night, watching the fabled neighborhood pass.
They’d pulled into the garage of a modest-looking house, then led
him inside. They’d offered food, but he’d claimed he wasn’t hungry,
despite his rumbling stomach. He might be naive, but he knew better
than to accept food or drink.
When they’d taken him downstairs, through a TV room into a guest
bedroom, he’d been certain this was where the situation would
change. But they’d only turned on the lights, pointed out the
adjoining washroom and said they’d see him in the morning. They
hadn’t even closed the door, but left it ajar, so he wouldn’t feel
locked in.
Now, as he fought the urge to sleep, footsteps sounded on the
stairs. The woman’s voice, sharp with an accent. Then the man’s.
Then another man’s. And another . . .
Oh, shit.
Heart hammering, he tried to rouse himself. Why was he so tired?
Goddamn it, he had to make a break for it, before he found himself
in the middle of a gang bang or—
Outside, in the TV room, the woman offered refreshments. Two of
the men asked for wine, the third accepted water. Then their voices
settled into one place, as if they were sitting.
Wine and conversation as a prelude to sex games with a teenage
boy?
Brendan strained to make out their words. They were talking about
books. "Texts" as they called them, tossing around words like
belief and ritual, debating the different translated
meanings of Hebrew and Latin versions.
Latin. That’s what the woman had been speaking earlier. As he’d
been getting into their car, she said been saying something to the
man in another language, and with her accent, Brendan had figured
she was reverting to her mother tongue to relay a private message.
The language, though, had sounded familiar. Now he knew why. As a
Christmas and Easter Catholic, he’d heard enough Latin.
Now these people were discussing religious texts, and that
couldn’t be a coincidence. The couple had said they wanted to help,
as penance for their mistakes with their son. Good Samaritans.
"—too old," one man was saying, his voice rising enough for
Brendan to hear him easily. "All of our success has been with kids
much younger, and I don’t understand why we need to change that
now."
"We aren’t changing," another man said. "We’re expanding and
experimenting. There’s a limited supply of younger children out
there and it’s difficult getting access to them. If we can adjust
the procedure to work successfully with teens, we open the door to
limitless possibilities."
"Don’s right." The woman again. "One or two a year isn’t enough,
not for the scale we . . ."
Her voice dropped soothingly until, once again, Brendan could
only catch the odd word.
He couldn’t blame them for setting their sights on children. By
his age, most street kids had no interest in "rescue." They were too
immersed in the life to accept help. But he would. Drugs weren’t a
problem—he’d never been able to afford them. They could spout all
the Bible verses they wanted and he’d smile and agree if it meant
getting on a bus home. He could tell his parents he’d hadn’t
failed; he’d just had a religious experience and had changed his
mind.
He closed his eyes and pictured himself walking up his drive,
imagined his mother’s face, his little sister’s squeals, his
father’s expression—stern but relieved.
The conversation outside his door seemed to have turned to a
heated debate on the nature of suffering. Yeah, he thought
with a chuckle, definitely Catholic. From what he could make
out, it sounded a hell of a lot like a conversation between two
Goths he’d overheard last week.
Morbid. The word popped into his head and he turned it over in
his mind. A cool word. Described Goths and some religious types
alike—that fixation with death and suffering.
In the room beyond, a male voice had picked up volume again.
"—Romans used crucifixion not only because it was publicly
humiliating, but for the degree of suffering inflicted. With the
weight of the body pulling down, breathing becomes difficult, and
the condemned could hang for days, slowly suffocating."
"True, but according to accounts of the witch trials, burning was
the worst way to die. If you keep the person from dying from smoke
inhalation, they can live a surprisingly long time, and suffer
unimaginable pain."
Brendan shivered. Okay, that went beyond morbid. Maybe these
weren’t mainstream religious do-gooders, but some kind of fanatical
sect. Like the Scientologists or something. Most religious people he
knew were good folks, but there were wackos. As much as he wanted to
go home, he wouldn’t put up with any kind of sick shit. He should
get up, go in there, maybe tell them he’d changed his mind. But he
was so tired.
The voices had stopped. Good. He’d rest for a few more minutes,
then sneak out—
The door opened. In walked the man and woman, followed by three
others: a younger woman, a balding man and a white-haired one.
"Hello, Brendan," said the woman.
Brendan struggled to his feet. "I want to leave."
The woman nodded. Then she stepped forward, lifted her hand to
her mouth and blew. A cloud of white dust flew into Brendan’s face.
He tried to cough, but only wheezed. She started speaking in Latin
again and his knees gave way. The other two men rushed to grab him,
each taking an arm, their grips gentle as they helped him to his
feet.
The men lifted his arms around their shoulders. His eyelids
flagged and closed. His feet dragged across the floor as they took
him into a second, smaller room. The men exchanged words, then
lowered him to the floor. A cold, hard floor.
He opened his eyes. There, from high above, a dog stared down at
him. A terrier, like his sister’s dog. But there was something wrong
. . .
Legs. It didn’t have any legs. Just a torso and a head perched on
the edge of an overhang, watching him.
Hallucinating.
Drugged?
He should care—knew he should care—but he couldn’t work up the
energy. He squeezed his eyes shut and huddled there too weak to even
think. He heard them talking and he could tell they were speaking
English, but deciphering the meaning of the words required too much
energy, so he just listened to the sound and let it lull him.
Liquid splashed onto his back, seeping through his shirt. Cold
and wet and stinking of something he should recognize. Then, as he
was about to drift off, his wandering brain identified the smell.
Gasoline.
He snapped awake, panicked, telling his arms and legs to move,
his mouth to scream, but nothing obeyed. He cracked open his eyes
just enough to see the people filing from the room. The woman
stopped in front of him and bent. Her smiling lips parted, saying
something reassuring. Then she struck the match.